Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Monday, June 1, 2009

Reminders from the Dreamtime

Njoro felt good. The food hadn't been too bad. Actually she would never have believed that stewed polar bear would ever feel so satisfying, had anybody asked her back home. Or that lying here, thousands of miles away from any settlement, far into the northern ice-cap buried in a snow-cave in a raging storm, could have felt so much like home as it did now.
She thought of the day they left Lhasa.

Leaving the city, all the walls along the port had been decorated with banners. The banners contained the usual 'reminders'; simple messages meant to keep you remembering the basic truths of life. Things like the fact that you were never alone. That everyone came from the same Dreamtime, that we all have the same needs in life, and so on.
Along the brick corridor leading to the windcraft, there were a series of glass boxes on the wall. They were all backlit with candles, and all contained simple verbs in different conjugational forms.
They were meant to be concrete reminders of how one shared the same experiences in life, regardless of their viewpoint, sex or other seeming differences.
Whether one was first, second or third person, singular or plural, masculine, feminine or neuter, it was all just down to simple variations in grammar.
The first one read:

I
am

You
are

He is
She is
It is

We
are

You
are

They
are

The message was a very simple one, but very effective in explaining such a basic concept, she thought to herself. She let her thoughts wander, and found that she was getting very excited about the journey they were about to embark upon, now that they were actually leaving. Something seemed to open up inside her, like an invisible extra skin that she'd never noticed before, but became very aware of now that it started to disappear. Another sign passed her head:

I
breathe

You
breathe

He breathes
She breathes
It breathes

We
breathe

You
breathe

They
breathe

The message seemed all too appropriate. She had to admit that the last year in the confinement of the House had started wearing her down a little. To the point that most of her meditations were mostly spent on keeping the positive charges flowing freely, instead of doing some real work. Not that she didn't appreciate her duties and all the trust that gradually had been put into her as the years passed. She almost blushed at the thought of the clumsiness that permeated her entire person in her apprentice years.
It had been her mother that first had suggested she should join the House. Not that she hadn't felt the attraction herself throughout her early childhood. Every sign was there. Her insight was very strong in her earliest years - as they usually are in children before they became confused by their external learning. But Njoro had something more on offer. She remembered one incident when she was about three years old. One of her friends had lost her toy. Not any toy, but the one toy that makes the daily struggle of any three year old worthwhile. The kind of toy that would give comfort when gravity had played one of its naughty tricks, or when the world seemed nothing but a ruthless dark void, loveless and scary. Her friend had cried her eyes out, and no-one could give her any remedy for her great loss. Suddenly Njoro had said, without looking up from what she was playing with on the grass, "It's behind the large bush behind the well." And it was. It was the first time she could see so clearly and know how to use it for something specific, and from there on everyone knew her skills would only grow stronger with time. She knew this, her mother knew this, and when the first delegation from the House visited them just after her fifth birthday, they all seemed to recognize her as an old friend. She still remembered the smells and sounds of that magical visit. There was much laughter and warmth that day.

I
feel

You
feel

He feels
She feels
It feels

We
feel

You
feel

They
feel


But even if the House proved to be exactly the home she believed it would be on that summer day when she was five, over the years her days had given her fewer and fewer challenges when it came down to using herself to the full. Not that she didn't enjoy the feeling of safety, but something inside her had started to get restless, wanting to move on, even to seek some kind of danger. At least these were the feelings that surfaced now that her invisible skin had started to disintegrate, and they were finally setting out on their great journey to the north.

Pi walked a few paces in front of her. He was talking to Sha-Ton while gesticulating energetically in the air between them. He smiled, as always. She was a little anxious, but still very excited about how they would function together now that they were on their own in a small entourage far from the safe haven of the House.

I
love

You
love

He loves
She loves
It loves

We
love

You
love

They
love


Oh, shut up.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Nospeakland

She didn't care so much anymore about the snow that struggled its way into her weary eyes.
They'd been walking this path for days and days, now driven only by a hope that some new landscape would emerge from the monotonous bricks of white and blue.
Shades of white, shades of blue. Endlessly in repeat.
And the light.
Even though the days were short, she’d never seen such light.
Relentless, ruthless light.
This wasn't at all like the vision of the journey that she'd been presented with back in Lhasa, when the whole mission still lived a comfortable life as a wild idea inside the mind of Pi. The wild and wonderful but quite fragmented mind that she'd be more than happy to influence towards a more understandable nature, had she been in a position where she could do just that.
Pi would always do things like this to her, though. Or so it would seem. Maybe she just did them to herself?
She wondered if Maya-Shi, her most trusted friend back home, was right in accusing her of being deeply - and very unhealthily - in love with Pi. She'd been following him through thick and thin for the last fifteen months. Mostly thin.
White.
Ice.
Nothing but trouble seemed to be the reward of their efforts so far.
She'd put up her usual mask of convincing insecurity against her friend's accusations, and pleaded that it was for the cause - and only for the cause - that she was willing to put herself into these extreme and often very dangerous situations.
But she could see Maya-Shi found the excuse as transparent as she found it herself. The human mind is a puzzling self-defending mechanism at times, she concluded, just as she was interrupted by loud yelling from behind her.
”...e....o..........n..........s......”
Mungpuk's eyes looked like frozen drops of liquid crystal through the sweeps of the howling blizzard. He was rapidly moving his Eskimo lips with exaggerated animation.
"What now?" she thought, trying not to form any expression at all, as the thin layer of ice on her face would then crack, making her skin hurt like hell and add to the uncomfortable situation she was already in.
"Th.. Ro..s ..s...osing.in..o...s"
Bloody wind.
”What?”
”The Rose is closing in on us. Drive your dogs. Set speed.”
”Shit!”